Forward dated to just before Tim wakes up from his coma.
Dear Kazu,
I've set this up so that if I'm absent from the city for up to two months you will receive this. I'm sorry if it got you momentarily excited.
You made me feel safe and loved. Even if I still struggle with believing it without second guessing it, when given a quiet moment I know it to be true.
I loved our time together just as much as I loved you. I felt like myself around you, able to laugh, rough house and be wrapped up in you. You are a gorgeous fun and honestly wiser than you have ever given yourself credit for, in ways that are honestly more important than others.
I'm sorry I'm not there. As much as I hate that place I hope you grow old there. I hope you get the days to live and love that your own world denied you.
[ Seeing the notification of a message from Tim gets Kazu's hopes up at first, but obviously that's dashed by the end of the first sentence. Luckily he doesn't have a chance to get too worked up by all the past tense -- Kyle texts him before he's done reading Tim's pre-written goodbye with an assurance that their boyfriend is still here. Still in his bed, unresponsive but not gone from here yet.
Kazu switches back and finishes reading, then blinks to clear his suddenly blurry vision and reads it again. There's something twisted up in his chest making it hard to breathe, so he gives himself a moment before messaging back. Even though Tim isn't awake to read it. ]
Thank you. Also you're not gone yet, so I'm very sorry because I know you hate it here. But I would really appreciate it if you'd wake up already.
text | user name : dangerousduck [private]
Dear Kazu,
I've set this up so that if I'm absent from the city for up to two months you will receive this. I'm sorry if it got you momentarily excited.
You made me feel safe and loved. Even if I still struggle with believing it without second guessing it, when given a quiet moment I know it to be true.
I loved our time together just as much as I loved you. I felt like myself around you, able to laugh, rough house and be wrapped up in you. You are a gorgeous fun and honestly wiser than you have ever given yourself credit for, in ways that are honestly more important than others.
I'm sorry I'm not there. As much as I hate that place I hope you grow old there. I hope you get the days to live and love that your own world denied you.
Re: text | user name : dangerousduck [private]
Kazu switches back and finishes reading, then blinks to clear his suddenly blurry vision and reads it again. There's something twisted up in his chest making it hard to breathe, so he gives himself a moment before messaging back. Even though Tim isn't awake to read it. ]
Thank you.
Also you're not gone yet, so I'm very sorry because I know you hate it here.
But I would really appreciate it if you'd wake up already.